GOOD MORNING...

Good morning, Sunday. Blue skies, sunny, eleven degrees below zero... lovely. :o)

Having a great week... making sure to have plenty of healthy selections @ home helps ALOT. I'm feeling positive about the food end of things.

....but, I kinda lost it the other morning when I was talking to my hubby in bed... realizing that I KNOW I don't LOOK like I think I do... I can't imagine what he sees when he looks @ me... it doesn't seem fair to him. I know every line of his face, the twinkle in his eyes that I love so much... his lovely lean body. I never think about the fact that the Julie that I see (not as large as I must be) isn't the same one that he does. He loves me... yes, I know this... we've been together for almost 26 years... but I'm embarrassed for him. He's never said anything to make me think he's embarrassed... but how could he not be? & my poor kids... same thing. They don't remember me ever being this heavy, this much be shocking to them. My teenager says that it's not a big deal... kids, his friends, don't care & don't tease... I hope not, but it still isn't fair that they have to be seen w/ me. Is that awful? I don't know...

.....that's why I'm here, I guess. Not just for them... but I don't want to feel like this anymore... physically & mentally... it's just become too much.

Anyway... moving forward, feeling good... that's all that matters, right?

♥