Tuesday, February 9, 2010

JUST DEALING W/ IT...

Yeah, disappeared...not surprised. I've obviously prioritized myself out of my life.

My scale says I'm 270 lbs....twohundredfreakinseventypounds. It's hard to see it written down. Making me cry as I write this. I'm 5 lbs from my highest... the way things are going I'm going to surpass it if I don't stop this NOW!

I'm obviously dealing w/ some depression...nobody in their right mind would do this to themselves. It's fairly mild... I just don't care & obviously have no self control... that's depressing in itself. I just now made an appointment w/ a therapist... it's been about a year & a half since mine moved away... I'm thinking I'm really needing to have someone to help me deal. Sad, I hate that I can't seem to get it together on my own.

Just trying to get it back together... starting w/ just writing down what I'm eating today.

8:30am
2 pieces of multigrain bread
Simply Fruit orange marmalade
creamy peanutbutter
milk

1:45pm
string cheese

2:15pm
chili
cheddar cheese
shredded lettuce
Sprite Zero


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