TIME FOR CHANGE...

Okay... here we are, again...

It's November 5th... the day after a historic Presidential Election.... the country is looking for change, something better...

...I'm feeling like it's time for me to begin looking for change in my life, too... DEFINITELY something better.

I totally lost sight of ME these last few years.... I'm lovin' what I've been up to... but I basically sacrificed myself in the process.

It's been since late June since I've been to a WW meeting... even though I hadn't been following the program since forever, I had still been trying to get to a meeting at least once a month for a little reality check...

I'm in dire need of a reality check... whether I truly want to face it or not. There's a meeting this morning, I'm gonna go. It's one of my favorite leaders, Pam... she lost 190 lbs after several starts/restarts, so she gets it. I'm thoroughly embarrassed, but I'm just hurting myself by staying away out of vanity.

I won't be surprised if I'm over 250 lbs. Ugh.

I'm pretty pissed @ myself... maybe that's what I need to get & keep me motivated. I've always wondered what it would take... I just don't know. Obviously my faith in myself is pretty low... I've continued to blow it over & over again for several years now... so I don't trust myself very much these days.

As much as I don't want to, I'll take a picture of myself & post it today... after I've showered, LOL... & gone to my meeting.

Time to make a committment to myself...