43 THINGS - GOAL #4...

Get to my goal weight & become a WW leader...finally

I posted this to my buddies on GOAD over 2 1/2 years ago on my 1st WW Anniversary, January 23rd, 2004 , after losing around 65 lbs & feeling really confident about my future…

…because of YOU & my experience on GoaD, I know that I’m about to set the rest of my life in a completely different direction than I had ever planned. I AM going to become a WW Leader once I hit goal (which, before this year, I had never even THOUGHT about doing)... BUT, I want to do more. I want to be able to personally touch people as individuals. I don’t know how yet, I’m trying to work that out, but I know that I’m going to do SOMETHING. I’ve been told so many times that I was going to do something great w/ my life… I always thought it was something creative… something in the Interior Design world, or maybe something else, but something creative, Artsy. I realize now that this “SOMETHING” is much more personal. I believe in myself now… I believe I can help change lives, THAT is the “something” I’m going to set off to do.

Like I said… OVER 2 1/2 years ago I knew I wanted to become a WW Leader & help change people’s lives… but as I’ve been struggling w/ moving forward the past 2 years (see my first few Keep losing weight till I reach my goal weight posts on 43 Things to see more about that), I’ve lost sight of that desire I once had. Things were so easy for me early on that I was able to focus on other people’s struggles & I loved being able to do that. But the struggle of NOT losing weight has completely diverted my attention away from helping others.

I’ve been struggling the past few months w/ “what am I going to do w/ the rest of my life” questions since my kids are back in school & I’m left w/ too much time on my hands. WHEN I’m working, the work that I do is freelance & extremely specialized (I design & draw, by hand, custom cabinetry & furniture) & pays really well. The designers I’ve been working w/ for the past 10 years aren’t very busy right now & I’m not really excited about looking for other designers to work w/. I’m feeling extremely unskilled as far as any other “career” type jobs go & am feeling really spoiled as I don’t want to bother w/ any unskilled/minimum wage paying job.

I’m too creative for my own good & too ADD to decide on any one creative outlet (not that any would pay well). If I wanted to dig deeper into the design world, like maybe become an architect (which I would love), I would have to get all of the basic college courses out of the way first, as my design degree is an Associates Degree, which was 100% Interior Design… so an actual high-end architect job just seems so out of reach, like I’d be starting from scratch.

Sooooooooooooooo… as I’m continuing to struggle w/ figuring out how to get myself moving forward w/ weight-loss again & trying to figure out what to do w/ my life, I started remembering my early desire to become a WW Leader & realized that THIS was the answer I’ve been looking for. Not only does it make me want to REALLY really focus on what I need to do to get this weight off once & for all so I can become a Lifetime WW member & be qualified to work for WW… but it answers my burning “what to do w/ my life” question. I know I’m not going to get rich being a leader… but that’s what my DH is for, LOL… I just need to be doing something fulfilling & also feel like I’m contributing to “our” finances, as little as it may be. I’ve always said that I would be happy to work for minimum wage doing something I love…like in a garden shop… unskilled, probably, but good for your soul… nurturing something… plants, people, etc. Being a leader is also very flexible, which works great for my family.

Okay… I’m talking myself into circles, what a surprise. :o) I’m just feeling really good about this. So now let’s see what we can do to get there…

More to come…