A YEAR OF DOIN' THE DANCE...a Julie Ramble

It was a year ago Sunday (9/4) that I hit my low weight of 185.6 ... almost 90 lbs gone... then I started to do that little dance w/ the scale. Don't know exactly what it was... I had been dealing w/ extremely slow weight loss for quite a while before that... working my butt off w/ a personal trainer, weight training, taking water aerobics classes several days a week, etc. (you can see my WEIGHT CHART w/ weekly notes)

When CORE came out, I decided to give it a try... LOVED IT!! I lost 4 lbs that first week... gained the 2nd week & then started "doin' the dance" w/ the scale. (gave up on CORE... although I generally try to eat CORE foods as much as possible... I HAVE to journal & track the basics)

I also got super busy w/ work (freelance work, had been sporadic up till then... lots of ME time, not anymore!)

I "thought" I was doing a pretty good job maintaining... one pound up, one pound down, four pounds up, one pound down, etc... until I took a minute to REALLY look at the numbers & realized I was up 15 or so pounds!! (a little OBVIOUS when you go back over the 200 lb mark!)

I continue to work @ it... I still go to my meetings & have really great weeks in between some not so great ones. Actually, if I give myself a break & think about it... those not so great weeks usually aren’t THAT bad... mainly not journaling & being maybe 60-70% OP, I suppose... but not good enough to get me anywhere. Still trying to figure it all out & know that I will... this isn't something I'm giving up on... this is ME, right?? I realize that this isn’t a “success only” journey... that there are going to be times when this isn’t going to be easy... it’s WORK & sometimes it may SUCK ... but it’s my reality... my LIFE!

I've been trying to get my head back to where it was when I first went OP in January 2003... when I realized that I had to WORK at it... that it's not just going to happen on its own... so I'm JOURNALING (most of the time... needs to be ALL of the time), thinking POSITIVE & trying to move more (although I need to TRY harder!!). Gotta MAKE it happen... get that momentum going again... I just need to be more consistent, obviously.

Now that I've hit that full year mark, it's time to start REALLY moving forward. I don't know if I need to reset my stats to start where I am right now... I'm pretty darned proud of the weight I've lost up to now, Lord knows I could’ve gained it all back (& then some) w/in this year... but maybe resetting those starting numbers are the psychological restart that I need. I don't know... do you?? :o)


Julie


Read my NEXT ENTRY to see how I've started over...