YOU KNOW I'VE BEEN DOING THIS LITTLE DANCE...

w/ the scale for the last 9 months or so, right??

Well...after several tough weeks (after that major binge), I weighed in this morning w/ just a .6 lb gain (6/10ths)... I was thrilled! I told the weigher that I totally was expecting to see a 5 or 6 lb gain! I realized afterwards that even though I FELT like I had some rough times, I wasn't being as bad as I thought I was. I think that I feel like I'm not doing well when I'm not giving it 100%... when I'm not journaling or getting enough exercise... but now I can see that I AM continuing to make the majority of my choices good ones... maybe not 100 or even 95%, but maybe more like 80%... that has to be good enough sometimes, doesn't it??

In my meeting last week, my leader said something that kind of hit home to me. She said that some of us get stuck when we get to the point in our journey that we become comfortable... when others start mentioning how great you're looking, etc... the "critical" weight loss stage is over & it becomes easier to start slacking a little bit. That's me, completely. I got comfortable. I started feeling confident... liking the new curves that were emerging, feeling feminine & sexy, etc... then I just stopped trying so hard... & where has that gotten me?? Not anywhere positive, that's for sure!!

I've been trying to get my head back to where it was when I was in that "critical" weight loss stage... when I desperately wanted to lose weight, change my life, change my body... but does that mean that I have to begin to feel uncomfortable in my body again? I’m certainly NOT satisfied w/ where I am now... I have no desire to stay @ this weight, in this shape... but I’m convinced that being satisfied & proud of how far I’ve come (rather than being distressed over the last 9 months of nothing) is keeping me from finding that fire that’ll help me move forward again. Does that make any sense?? I feel like I’m not coming up w/ the right words here...

Anyways... knowing that positive momentum comes when positive things are happening & positive things happen when I’M MAKING THEM HAPPEN... I’m trying to get my head into that positive place... doing what I know I need to do to get things moving again... Journaling, Water, Exercise, etc... knowing that when I’m feeling proud of myself I continue to do the right things to keep that momentum going. I had a good week... actually a GREAT week... kept my PDA by my side, journaling everything in my WW-on-the-Go program (love it!)... getting in those basic foods that I know are key & moving my body a bit... I expected today's loss... of course, always wishing that a good week can erase the previous few bad ones, but knowing that it doesn’t work that way, LOL... it’ll take time, I know that, but lower numbers on that scale were a welcome sight, that’s for sure.

But how do I keep it going?? That’s what I need to figure out...

Wish me luck! :o)


Julie