CONFESSIONS (& CONSEQUENCES) OF REBELLION!! :o)

I've been busy, tired, absent & out of control for the last 2 weeks.

I don't exactly know why, I think I needed a little break from 100% consciousness & I did just that... I shut down.

No journaling...
No exercise...
No giving a rip...
Nothing.

It worked... I gained SIX POUNDS over the last 2 weeks... PLUS 2 weeks before, for my 2nd CORE WI, I had a gain of 1.6 lbs... totally unexpected! So I'm truly up a total of 7.6 lbs from my awesome first CORE WI loss of - 4.2 lbs 4 weeks ago.

Honestly, 6 lbs wasn't as bad as I was expecting, w/ how I felt, how my jeans fit & all...

...and I also know how much damage you can do in just a few weeks!!

I literally made myself sick, way too much sugar (like a whole package of frozen cookie dough over 2 days!) ... I hadn't ever done that even before going OP, I was obviously in need of a little rebellion.

I'm proud of myself for getting on the scale & facing reality. My leader talked to me a bit @ the scale & then had me bring up my 2 week struggle w/ the group... it helped, getting it out in the open... knowing that "I" know it's only a temporary thing, that my healthy life goes on from here, but I've been tired & stressed & a bit down on myself for the last few weeks. I don't like feeling like that... it feels so much better to be doing positive things for myself, feeling good & proud of what I'm doing...

Anyways... I'm back. I went to the gym after my meeting & worked out for 2 1/2 hours (active warm-up, strength training & then some intense time on the treadmill), it felt really good to be good to myself for a change... as I had blown off the gym these past few weeks.

I'm glad to be back on track. I'm back to journaling EVERYTHING (even though I'm doing CORE... "I" know that journaling works, period)

I have my water aerobics class tonight & then I'll do some weight training & jump on the treadmill for a while before heading home... & I'm committing myself to get to the gym EVERY morning this week to take some classes I've wimped out of over the last month. & I’m going to spend a little more time here ... although I know my house is better off if I don’t! :o)

Thanks for your support & encouragement, guys... being accountable to you all has made this act of rebellion much shorter than I’m sure it would’ve been in the past!


Julie

JULIE HAS LEFT THE PLATEAU!! :o)

Well... I'm HOPING that this darned plateau is officially OVER!

First week on WW's new CORE Plan... LOVED IT!!

WI today...

-4.2 lbs!!!

I've been hovering around 189 since June 12th... that's 12 weeks. (& it took me 17 weeks to go from getting into ONDERLAND in February to getting under 190) This loss is about a 1/4 of what I have lost this year. (15.4 lbs TOTAL lost in 2004... averages out to .45 lbs/week... last year's average was around 1.5 lbs/week) I'm so glad to have had this great WI... what a relief!!! I was trying so hard not to get my hopes up this week as many of my Hard-CORE GoaDi (a small number of GoaD buddies doing CORE too) buddies were having really fantastic results their first week doing CORE... I was HOPEFUL, but I know how stalled my weight loss has been these last several months. I'm not completely sold that the numbers are truly going to start moving again... gotta give me a few weeks of consistent losses (even small ones) to make me believe it.)

A total of 79.4 official WW pounds lost in 19 months! (lost my first 10 lbs the month before joining... so an "unofficial" loss of 89.4 lbs!!)

Anyways... I'm excited! (can you tell??)

I was the only one in my meeting that did CORE for the week, so my leader was very excited to have me talk about it & was thrilled w/ my loss! Lots of questions from the group about what I ate & all that... I truly was satisfied all week... I am blown away by how little it took to be so... whole foods are definitely worth looking in to, guys.

Anyways... gotta lot to do today, but know you guys were waiting to hear how it went!! Thank you for your support these last several months... plateaus STINK, but I'm living proof that if you just stick w/ it... know that no matter what, you're doing this to change your life & that it's not just about the scale... it's about living the life that is going to get you there, eventually.

Special thanks for my fellow Hard-CORE GoaDi for making this transition fun!!

Happy, happy, happy!! :o)


Julie