CONFESSIONS (& CONSEQUENCES) OF REBELLION!! :o)

I've been busy, tired, absent & out of control for the last 2 weeks.

I don't exactly know why, I think I needed a little break from 100% consciousness & I did just that... I shut down.

No journaling...
No exercise...
No giving a rip...
Nothing.

It worked... I gained SIX POUNDS over the last 2 weeks... PLUS 2 weeks before, for my 2nd CORE WI, I had a gain of 1.6 lbs... totally unexpected! So I'm truly up a total of 7.6 lbs from my awesome first CORE WI loss of - 4.2 lbs 4 weeks ago.

Honestly, 6 lbs wasn't as bad as I was expecting, w/ how I felt, how my jeans fit & all...

...and I also know how much damage you can do in just a few weeks!!

I literally made myself sick, way too much sugar (like a whole package of frozen cookie dough over 2 days!) ... I hadn't ever done that even before going OP, I was obviously in need of a little rebellion.

I'm proud of myself for getting on the scale & facing reality. My leader talked to me a bit @ the scale & then had me bring up my 2 week struggle w/ the group... it helped, getting it out in the open... knowing that "I" know it's only a temporary thing, that my healthy life goes on from here, but I've been tired & stressed & a bit down on myself for the last few weeks. I don't like feeling like that... it feels so much better to be doing positive things for myself, feeling good & proud of what I'm doing...

Anyways... I'm back. I went to the gym after my meeting & worked out for 2 1/2 hours (active warm-up, strength training & then some intense time on the treadmill), it felt really good to be good to myself for a change... as I had blown off the gym these past few weeks.

I'm glad to be back on track. I'm back to journaling EVERYTHING (even though I'm doing CORE... "I" know that journaling works, period)

I have my water aerobics class tonight & then I'll do some weight training & jump on the treadmill for a while before heading home... & I'm committing myself to get to the gym EVERY morning this week to take some classes I've wimped out of over the last month. & I’m going to spend a little more time here ... although I know my house is better off if I don’t! :o)

Thanks for your support & encouragement, guys... being accountable to you all has made this act of rebellion much shorter than I’m sure it would’ve been in the past!


Julie